Feeling high

I've seen so many moons,

swam in so many oceans,

burned with many suns,

And I've always left my door open,

patiently awaiting your arrival.

I've walked many paths,

run on so many streets,

slept enveloped in your memory,

mouth open,

waiting for my words to emerge.

Today, I've left behind all the longings of what could have been,

shedding all traces of memories,

even when I thought it was for eternity.

The cards showed me

that even though mourning is a process like a roller coaster,

today, I'm feeling so high

that I can no longer see anyone by my side.

After all this time?

I think I'm going to **** you until the end of time,

when my voice has lost its tone,

when my legs have no more strength,

when my eyes can no longer see,

and my arms can no longer reach you.

I think I'm going to cherish you in my memories,

when no one meets my standards,

when no other person can dry my tears like you,

when no one else can make me forget,

because after all these years, you are still the one I long for.

I think I'm going to keep all my words,

and I'm going to preserve all my truth,

I'll try not to blame or mistreat myself,

I'll try not to hurt myself,

thinking about how I wasn't enough for you.

To think that maybe if I were skinnier, prettier, funnier,

you would have stayed.

You would have fought,

because I couldn't fight alone...

 He estado en shock desde el Lunes, de verdad no podrías caer más bajo ante mis ojos. 

Honey, are you coming?

My bad reputation precedes me,

they say I play games,
that I'm not sincere,
that I'm cold and escape commitment,

oh well, I can't say otherwise.

But I always warned you to turn around,

because it's always frozen here,

It's July every day.

Just like my frozen hands on your neck,

choking you with my words,

drowning you in your hopes.

The more you try to reach for heaven,

the more I'll drag you to hell,

the more you try to take my hands,

the more I'll push you away,

and if you dare to even think of a future,

oh well, prepare yourself to be deceived.

You can't defeat what I am,

nor try to change me,

what I am, I have decided,

and I have decided to not forget what I am.