Dark necessities

At my fingertips,

In every space of my skin,

I bite my lip, and a sigh escapes me,

I want you so bad,

how is it possible to be sad and hor at the same time?

I roll my eyes,

In my fantasies, you are always painted with that color,

I consider myself so evil,

But in the end, who really knows me?

How is it possible to be so cute and evil at the same time?

I pull my hair, I have that necessity of feeling something,

I scratch my legs, I'm nearly reaching the end,

In moments nothing is real, I lose myself in my own mind,

How is it possible that something so unreal can feel so real?

I open my eyes,

Searching for you in my reality,

I forgot again how to forget you,

You are not here,

You are forever unreachable,

We didn't make it

We are lost until the end of times

How something so ordinary and unimportant can feel like I will never be able to forget it?

Well, just let it be...